Thursday, November 29, 2007

Cheque Please....School Stuff

First of all.. Bugaloo's cheque presentation was a huge success. Imagine if you will, our friend Big B, a former prison guard, 6ft 4, 270lbs holding an envelope and BugaLoo, standing on a chair, 3ft 5, 32 lbs, shaking this mans hand looks him straight in the eye and says..."Thank you very much Mr. Big B, the centre will like it very much". Some moments just melt my heart. It was so very kind of our friends to think of us and BugaLoo's child treatment centre for their group donation. I have been mulling over the idea for a bike event of some kind so I guess we will see how everything unfolds.

Which brings me to I am too friggin busy to plan an event this summer. Between keeping up with the ever changing therapy plan that is going on at my child's school and them not keeping me informed it's driving me crazy. Today I sent a long email to the vice principal hoping that I can get some of the processes figured out so I know who to address with certain problems. Honestly, sending a physically challenged kid to school shouldn't be this complicated or time consuming.

So between that and the ends volume of work at work life is stressful and not a fulfilling as I had hoped. My spvr was off yesterday and crapola hit the fan, which ended up with a meeting with our department and the VP, Awesome! I don't think it relieved any of the tension though?

I am off this morning because BugaLoo has a therapy session at 11:30 and it's almost 10 so I guess I should go get ready for the day. Since I jsut threw on jeans and a t-shirt to take him to school this morning.

Oh yeah did I mention I only had 2 hours of sleep last night due to peanut getting up with a fever, insomnia, and then BugaLoo up for 2 hours saying his tummy hurt and he couldn't sleep???

The good news is since Peanut had a fever we are not doing swimming tonight which means I can get into my pyjamas earlier tonight. Now that's something to look forward to !!!!!

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Effort People

So I busted my Ass like a crazy woman last week and apparently that's what I need to do is work like a dog every single day and then I can mildly stay caught up. I feel like a zombie but I can almost feel like I am in control.

Do you catch the drift...Work Sucks right now. I'm hoping this crappy feeling will go away soon. Supervisor and VP have spoken about my "situation" (meltdown of last Friday when no one would mind their own business).

I think I am moving on to the rage part now though, because I am pissed off. I have been stating for 2-3 months now that I need help, could use some help and no one cared to listen so I guess you have to lose your fucking mind and cry for a day before anyone will take you seriously.

Now I am feeling like sitting duck and trying to collect my thoughts so that upper echelon does not hold all the cards.

On to funnier things...I have challenged Minivan Mom to write a hilarious (well I think it will be hilarous) post in the new year. You will know it when you see it.

On a cheerful and endearing note, our biker friends decided to make a donation on behalf of our bugaloo to the Rotary club that supports his child treatment centre. Everyone say awwwww with me. I love it when bikers get all soft inside. So tomorrow nite we will be off for the big cheque presentation. I think it is so thoughtful of them.

My thoughts and prayers tonight are with my dear friend who lost her mother to cancer this past weekend.

I am so very thankful for my family and our health as we head into the holiday season.

Monday, November 26, 2007

What am I going to do???

Well, the cat is out of the bag. I DID NOT get the dream job I have been hoping for for the past 4 weeks. I came in second to someone who had more experience in fundraising. So depressing.

The reason I was excited for this job was that it was closer to home (right now I have a 30 min atleast commute in traffic) and it was less hours, 26 compared to the 35 that I attempt to work right now. So what is my next move??? I really don't know.

Something has to give and I'm afraid it will be my sanity. I would consider going back to school but for what???

I think I will take a week or two to meditate on it! (drinking is meditation isn't it?)

I had a minor meltdown at work on Friday , because no one can mind their own business . So maybe I will be able to work something out. But I can't really take a pay cut and continue to drive out here for work.

But I had a super great weekend around the house I got to spend individual time with the kids as they decided upon alternating nap time. Meaning mom got exactly 10 mins to herself. Bugaloo decided to be a mess fairy and write with black marker all over the house. That took an hour to clean up. Peanut is teething with her eye teeth and doesn't want to eat anything, she just wants to stand there with her fingers in her mouth and scream.

In between all that I got the laundry done and get this....PUT AWAY!!!! Now I know most of you realize what a grand feat this is!

I also baked some cookies and got the grocery shopping done. It's great when I can channel my depression and disappointment into my house work.

Hope y'all are having a better day than me!

Monday, November 19, 2007

Blog Take 5

Well...Not until I logged on today did I realize that I have not posted for the past 8 days. Not to say I haven't developed over 5 blogs in my mind over the past week, but no one wants to go there, least of all me. I survived it once no nee to go back.

It was a relatively passive week in our household. Some minor meltdowns.

As you know I am interviewing for my dream job, however will have to take a significant cut in pay and I have been running the numbers and I am just not sure how that will all play out in the end. But hubby has been supportive and said just take the job and we will figure it out later. Now my pragmatic mind says. "LATER, LATER are you kidding me LATER when, like when we are using food stamps and the food bank to feed our kids.

I am supposed to be supporting and raising funds for the community programs and social needs not a major recipent of these programs.

But like my sister said, can I really afford NOT to take the job if I am offered. It is working for a cause I am so deeply committed to because it has become my life and every aspect of the job is a no brainer for me and it is LESS hours so I may have some time to spend with my 18 month only who barely knows I am her mother.

Bugalo (our son) had an appointment for his orthotics and we had to cast him for new ones since he has grown so much. Then I was informed that the price has increased approx 30% since his last pair last year which were a cool $2500. Yikes.

Now here in Canada we get a portion of that covered approx 75% so you say who cares! But I tell you $800 before Christmas on the eve of possibly taking a 40% paycut was enough to drive me into a minor depression, until we stopped for Tim Horton's donuts on the way home. (way to pinch those pennys)

Well so much more has happened this week so I will try to be diligent and keep you posted.

I have my 2nd interview today so hopefully I will have some good news to post.

Now I must go groom myself and become presentable.

Sunday, November 11, 2007

Bloggity Blog Blog Blogger

mmmmm..... what to write tonight. I am humbly doing laundry.

Mainly because I am procrastinating doing the grocery shopping. After all I went to church, change two pee soaked set of clothes reloaded the car and went to the Rememberance Day ceremony at our local cenotaph, Thankfully mother-in-law took pity and assumed we needed lunch and had lunch ready for us. Came home started barage against laundry Wave 1. Cooked a wicked dinner so that we would have lunches for tomorrow and dinner for tomorrow as we have swimming lessons tomorrow and ZERO time for cooking. No I did not pause for a nap like someone else in my household who is older than 4. No I did not. I enforced barage against the laundry (pee soaked clothes) with Wave 2. Made a pie (duh I don't know why) and Rice Krispie Squares again I don't know why. (me thinks a monthly visitor is on its way!)

So as oldest child is busy finishing up an episode of Diego before bed. Here I sit at the computer taking a few minutes to ponder the procrastinating for life sustaining food....all under the pretenses of barage against the laundry Wave 3. Hopefully the last of it except towels and sheets of course.

It never truly ends does it???

I guess since I cooked like a maniac I am feeling no acute pressure to replenish the cabinets just yet!

Talk to me on Tuesday at 5pm when we have nothing to eat!

Friday, November 9, 2007

Why oh Why?

It's a dreary Friday so let's talk about the things that go on in the universe.

Why oh Why....

Is a fantastic day always followed by the flu, a headache and generally feeling crapola.

Why oh Why...

When I feel like said crapola do the people driving in front of me have to be making out like some kind of porn movie. Honestly... My new positive attitude said ahhhh isn't that so sweet. 7 traffic lights later, Get a fucking room already! jeez!

Why oh Why...

must bosses have emergencies at 4pm when I am trying to leave by 4:30pm

Why oh Why...
Can't massage therapist be available whilst I feel like shit. And she cannot be available for another 10 days oiy!

Why oh Why....
Can't back up massage therapist be available instead of being in big city taking spiritual enlightment course pshaw

Why oh Why....
Can't interview process for new job be over and said job be mine as we all know it will be!

Why oh Why!
Can't my work cafeteria serve a good salad and a decent wrap on the same day? Is it really that hard to use the good lettuce for each item.

I think half of the planet is feeling like crap so to everyone I hope you are feeling better soon!

Get lots of rest
Drink lots of fluids
Chicken noodle soup


Tuesday, November 6, 2007

What a fantastic day!

So many beautiful things happening. The perfect job I have been lamenting about?? I have an interview today and I feel I will be a great fit. Here's hoping.

My hubby is finishing up his last block of school this week and killed an exam yesterday and has two more today. Although he was a little grumpy this morning I know he will do well and his overall mood will improve. I am so proud of him for sticking with this program for the past five years. He is almost there and he is doing great!

My dear friend ran in the NYC marathon this week-end and in his words "crushed it". And he is right. Last year he placed 17,000 out of 39,000. Yes thousands people.

This year 4,314! Can you believe that... CRUSHED IT! boo yah! I can't even begin to tell you how proud I am of this accomplishment for him.

So really I can only begin to wonder at all they other really cool and beautiful this that will be revealed to me this week!

I big shout out to my cyber mentor in Texas who got 99% on her social work paper. We all know she should have gotten 100%!

May everyone have the great feeling I have today!

Thursday, November 1, 2007

28 Minutes

Yup! That's how long our Hallowe'en lasted. Including getting costumes on. It almost went down the tubes when Tino refused to put on his spider costume and declared he wanted to be a pumpkin.?? excusemewhat?!?!? So at 5:45 just before we began I gave him the choice of the spider or the lady bug for his sister and he chose the ladybug. Which wasn't bad as he has a red coat so the wings fit in with his color scheme anyway.

Gracie was as cute as a button as the spider, complete with 4 legs dragging on the ground behind her. She had the plastic pumpkin to gather her candy and that dragged on the ground behind her as well. At 6:13pm Tino declared, "I have enough treats now, we can go home." Gotta love a 4 year olds perspective.

Hubby and I giggled the whole 28 minutes it was great fun!