So Pissy!

I guess I have been in a funk for the past week or so. I am just pissy.

Partly I got my period and well that makes anyone pissy.

Mainly because I did not get dream job! boo.

Did receive special recognition for great job I did coordinating event at current job so that was nice.

just wish I could catch a break. I guess I really need to sit with myself and figure out what I really want.

Baaah Who has time to do that.

Monday - here we go again

Funny I seem to have a new song stuck in my head. I really love the rhythem and beat of the song. I must look hilarious singing and dancing along to it but for now I love it. At least I would laugh if I saw a 30 something white mother of 2 little ankle biters, shaking her booty to You spin me round - by Flow rider. Seriously.

But I choose to believe it's karma right now. Ever time I feel like totally losing it over all the "stuff" going on in my life right now, some how this song finds me and I can't help but get a great big smile on my face and start dancing around.

I heard this song on my way to my 2 hour job interview, I heard this song on my weekend away and just now tonight while I was sitting here feeling sorry for myself because I have too many balls in the air right now you guessed it - my song on an episode of CSI Miami no less. (of course one of the episodes with p.diddy)

I was coming here tonight to whine and complain again about all the crap going on around here, not here... with me. I am all over the place right now. Trying to do a good job at work, trying to get a new job, trying to be a goode Mom, good wife. I've almost thrown good friend out the window because hey who has time for that!

I have a girls weekend coming up after march break and I am so looking forward to it. I haven't seen most of these gals since before Christmas, that's just friggin crazy.

I feel over committed, I wish I could say I feel under appreciated but the truth is I really feel like I haven't done much to be appreciated for. I feel like my efforts are mediocre, hovering just below the surface of good enough. Definately not noticeable definately not the level or results I am used to performing at.

Mediocre that's how I am feeling. boo I DONT LIKE IT.

So it's time to kick some ass and take some names. i am sick of feeling this worn out worn down and sucky.

Step One: Schedule hair cut and highlights and purchase new outfit. Doesn't have to be expensive just new, Something to shake me loose.

Thanks for listening.
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Can I get off this ride?

What an incredibly busy few weeks, when I first reviewed my calendar for the last few weeks it didn't seem so bad, a few nights out, a few nights in the only issue was two weekends away back to back.

then it all went to hell. the kids had the flu, more work obligations, hubby not feeling well.

My house is a disaster and I have exactly two hours to restore some semblance of order before I leave for an overnight conference in Toronto.

I am still hoping to get a call back for a second round of interviews for a really great job for me.

My first round I kinda winged it and I had some pretty good answers and some mediocre answers so I picked up a few books on interviewing and hope that if I get a call back I will be more polished, confident and better prepared for this next round.

I'm sure they will call today after I have left for the weekend which means I won't know until I get back tomorrow night after dinner. ahhhh!

It's raining here today which stinks because it's still a little chilly and I wanted to straighten my hair which does not do well with the damp weather.

poo

Alright now I only have 1 and 1/2 hours to get my shit together so I had better get gone!
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Vacation Day - I think not

More like a running around like a chicken with my head cut off day. Doctors appointment for me, so ihad to run the kids out to my parents house. Which is normally fine but since the kids have been sick A they don't want to get out of their pjs and B they don't want to get up in the morning. I was almost late for my appointment.

I am on pins and needles waiting for results from A my job interview and B my tests I had done at the doctors today. The last test I had did not have a proper sample so I don't even know if I have anything to be concerned about or not.

Which for anyone who knows me...means that in the back of my mind I am concerned that their may be an issue. next the doc telss me it could be 3-4 weeks before we will ahve the results back. ARE YOU KIDDING ME? I am likely to go insane. Besides the answer to these test may help determine my life's course.

Not unlike the outcome of this job interview process.

Either way here I am trying to psych myself up to keep on keeping on as if things are normal? ugh!

The kids are mostly better just crabby from lack of doing anything fun for the past few weeks. I am away for work this weekend so they will have to wait for Sunday for anything fun to happen around here.

Speaking of crabby, one crabby girl just jumped into my arms and is demanding my attention.

Gotta Go - Wish you well

Being a Working Mom sucks Part 4

I've given up all pretenses of normalcy at this point. In theory my life is totally awsome the husband the kids the house the job, it's all good.

But in reality this week I am pulling my hair out. The FLU has visited our home again, not the achy I feel crappy flu, moaning and graoning crabby kid flu. NO oh no....We are experiencing the full blown 104 degree flu accompanied by delusions and projectile vomiting.

I have spent more time on the phone with my MIL (who is looking after the kids) while I put on the facade that I am working.

On top of that I had a job interview this morning for dream job #2 and one the the interview questions was "What do you consider you greatest accomplishment?"

WTF! I have cleaned 3 sets of sheets from projectile vomiting, I have had count'em 2 and 3 quarters hours sleep in the last two days, I am showered, well dressed and sitting here in front of you providing relatively coherent answers to your 2 hour interview. That is a goddamned feat of serious proportions and at this point in time my crowning achievement and definition of success in my lifetime.

WHAT that's not a real answer? oh all right. how about the fact that I am still employed at the same company after 13 years two buyouts and 5 name changes is that enough of an achievement for you? thanks I'm proud too.

I still like answer #1

Hopefully this will pass. if they still have temperatures tomorrow we will be visiting the doctor just for shits and giggles and I'll try to fit that into my already really short work week.

Now I am off to bed because I am afraid if I don't get some serious sleep soon I will be just as sick as them.

Keep you fingers crossed that I get a call back for 2nd interviews, maybe then I will get a chance to be my focused super amazing self. This compnay offers a fitness grant that you can apply for to pay for fitness equipment. IE that treadmill I have had my eye on. SWEET!

This too will pass and my life can go back to being super AWESOME! Thanks

Peace out!

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Back to bloggin

I would have called this Being a Working Mom SUCKS part 3 but I didn't think that was really an eyecatcher or very thought provoking.

What a crazy week around here. I was out almost every night this week for work or for other obligations. I hate it when it all packs into one week but it seems to happen every 4 months or so. I just finished watching a little tv with the hubster and now I thought I would drop a quick line to say I have had no time for y'all this week and I'm sorry. but SHIT what are you going to do.

I'm happy to let you know that my kids fought with me EVERY day to get dressed and get out of the house. Which made me feel like a frenzied, anxiety ridden crack head all week. I had a major project due at work which took ALL ( and I mean ALL)my breain power this week. (PS, project complete and approved and perfect not one change from VPs, and Managers! SWEET!) Last time I saw my hubby was Monday night because the nights I did make it home by eight he had to run out check on a job site, pick up some equipment or help out a friend.

I am also happy to report that although the above was "stressful" I DID NOT add any stress to my life this week by falling, hurting myself or locking my keys in the car which makes me eternally grateful to all that is holy and sacred in the universe because I SHIT you not I could not have dealt with another GODDAMNED thing this week. One more minor little wrench and I would have exploded it to a supernova and gone all MEDUSA all over someones ASS.

this week was my aunite's birthday so a shout out to her, Also thankful that during my crazy week I managed to send her a note in the regard and nasty joke about getting old. hee hee hee.

Now I am off to beddy as this girl is DOG ASSED TIRED.

Tomorrow after I dig out the kids and the dog from all the crap that has exploded in my house and go GROCERY shopping for GOD's sake and re-stock the pantry for my poor starving family. I intend to make a POT of COFFEE and sit down and surf the net for a few HOURS and hopefully come up with some inspiring SHIT for you folks.

Kick Ass before someone kicks yours! Peace out!

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Being a Working Mom SUCKS - Part 2

I am sitting here well past the time that I should be getting ready to go to work. Why? I know this is going to make my life miserable today if I don't get my ass in gear. But I just don't want to. I have a project that is overdue through no fault of my own, I have been waiting and waiting, remindings, asking and pleading for the information I need to complete this project. Now I have to go to the boss and I'm sure there will be a flip out because it should be done already. ANYWAY....

I would think its my strong tendency for avoiding public humiliation that is making me plant my but on the couch and write this silly little diddy instead of getting up and getting my shit together and getting to work.

I just want to play playdoeh with my kids today and read to them and see what's going on in their world. Is that so bad. But with 4 sick days and a vacation day under my belt for January alone, I would think I best get my butt to work. Ugghh!

so I better only spend another moment wallowing in this wasteland of pity and then go try to find an outfit that mildly makes me look put together and get dressed in 10 mins, wrestle the kids into something and get on the move.

Maybe if I don't look like an unfinished project no one will assume that anything is wrong.

Here's to a day that I will be glad when it's over!